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Genie [userpic]
Hi Y'all
by Genie (genie_lorene)
at December 29th, 2005 (08:46 pm)

I am a reader of Neale Donald Walsch. I am a believer in the Oneness that is Everything. I believe that Life=Love=God. I also believe that we all have our own personal truths and that so long as these truths cause no harm, they are as right as any other.

I'm a compulsive eater who is at an extremely low point, the lowest in my life actually. I gave up alcohol in 1999 and never looked back but, for me, that was easy compared to eating healthy.

I'm looking to connect with those who also seek recovery from a spiritual point of view that most of the world thinks of as "alternative," "wrong," or "heathen."


jesse [userpic]
Higher Power stuff
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at November 17th, 2005 (08:54 am)

I read this yesterday and it literally hit me like a brick wall. This is from an Al-Anon book, "Paths to Recovery", but it definitely applies to anyone and everyone.

Somewhere along life's path, I bought a bill of goods that God was punishing, rejecting and judgmental. I truly believed that God wanted me to suffer and to be miserable in order to pay for my mistakes.  I thought God did not have time for me.  I thought I was just supposed to survive and exist. That was what I believed.

In Al-Anon I learned I could have any concept of a Higher Power I wanted.  I decided to throw out my past concept of God so I could start over with a clean slate.  Cautiosly, I began to talk to him.  I experimented with prayer and meditation.  I spent months getting comfortable with this new relationship.  My sponsor let me take my time while she gave me encouragement and suggestions.

When I felt comfortable and safe in this new and special relationship, I began to redefine my concept of my Higher Power.  I came to a beauitfully simple conclusion - God is my best friend.  We talk, laugh and cry together.  I can say anything to God.  He knows my fears, defects and mistakes.  He also knows my dreams, assets and successes.  He knows what I need and He provides for me.  God gently, with a great sense of humor, points me in the direction of His will for me.  When I have questions, I know it is okay to ask.  God never makes me feel stupid or wrong.  God gives me choices and when I make a mistake - it's okay. We only get closer.  My God always has time for me and He makes me feel special.

I found a friend who will always be there for me.  I found a God of my understanding. Once I understood Him, the decision to turn my will and my life over to Him was easy.

jesse [userpic]
Spending Time Alone To Rejuvenate
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at November 11th, 2005 (01:01 pm)

Taken from DailyOm.

Solitude seems counterintuitive in today's busy world. Time alone isn't easy to come by and reserving time for oneself feels unnatural or unimportant. But all life is balance and, while we enrich our outer selves with activities and hobbies, we have the tendency ignore the quieter inner self which is the source of creativity and serenity. Solitude, often wrongly equated with loneliness, can offer an opportunity to achieve a state of calm, focus on your creativity, examine your life, or contemplate your goals, without the distraction of the opinions of others or the background noises of daily life.

Time alone must be found to be enjoyed. Because constant activity and socialization has become the accepted norm, you may need to schedule your periods of solitude. Early in the morning or late at night, when others are sleeping, are perfect times to steal a few quiet moments alone without any interrupts to let your mind wander, to prioritize, or simply to rest and replenish. During longer periods of solitude, you may want to engage in solitary activities that bring you peace, joy, or comfort, such as writing in a journal or taking a long bath. Take advantage of unexpected solitude whenever you can. If you find yourself caught in traffic, turn off the radio, and spend a few fulfilling moments de-stressing.

Though it may seem impossible when there is so much to do, making the most of even a short period of solitude can rejuvenate your mind and energize your body. Once free of the random noise of daily life, it becomes easy to rediscover and re-evaluate interests, goals, passions, and joys, which will allow you to develop a deeper, more meaningful relationship with your inner self.

jesse [userpic]
recovery update (way long)
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at November 9th, 2005 (08:35 am)

I'm not ashamed to admit that I am in a 12-step program. I started going nearly four months ago and I know I've made huge progress. Before going, I was a doormat who was a victim of the world and especially to those closest to me. I had no choice but to be miserable and hate my life. That is DEFINITELY not the case today.

I lead a meeting on SundayCollapse )

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And I went to yet ANOTHER meeting last nightCollapse )

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Looking at ourselves and our "character defects" is a very difficult thing to do. I always felt justified in being miserable because of the actions of someone else, or based on how THEY choose to live. I see now that I am NOT in control of others or life in general. The only thing I can control in this world is myself.

My recovery, and the teachings of buddhism has taught me to detach. I am my own person, with my own feelings, thoughts, flaws and strengths. I am no better or worse than anyone else. We are all equal in this world.

Jerry Springer isn't someone I'd ever quote, but as he says, "take care of yourselves, and each other" is excellent words of advice. You don't need a 12-step program but you should definitely have support.

jesse [userpic]
listening and sharing
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at November 6th, 2005 (10:32 pm)

The miracle is this — the more we share, the more we have.

Neglect or refusal to share cuts communication between a man and his soul.

We never listen when we are eager to speak.

Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.

The word 'listen' contains the same letters as the word 'silent'

Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.

Sharing with others is not the way to get rich — it's the way to get happy!

"Be around people who have something of value to share with you. Their impact will continue to have a significant influence.

We must learn to lean on others, and sometimes accept others' leaning on us.. We can't do it alone.

Many have known shame and fear and many have known joy. Sharing mine with others today will make my ride through life a smoother one.

Secrets are things we give to others to keep for us.

Keep a secret, it's your slave. Tell it, and it's your master.

Kristine [userpic]
Hi, I'm Kristine
by Kristine (sidneymintz)
at October 30th, 2005 (09:10 pm)

I just joined this community, and I want to share with you something I read last night in Ajahn Chah's A Still Forest Pool:
"We seek not for a life of pleasure, but to find peace. Peace is within oneself, to be found in the same place as agitation and suffering. It is not found in a forest or on a hilltop, nor is it given by a teacher. Where you experience suffering, you can also find freedom from suffering. To try to run away from suffering is actually to run toward it. Investigate suffering, see its causes, and put an end to them right now, rather than merely dealing with their effects." (1991: 30)

jesse [userpic]
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at October 9th, 2005 (10:03 am)

Hey all, sorry I havent been posting. The past couple weeks have been crazy. I've been dealing with a truck thats falling apart, being sick and falling way behind in my photography class. Ok, thats the end of my excuses. haha.

I don't want this community to die, I just haven't been reading as much. I found some great books in the garage that are sitting around waiting to be read.

I'm kinda lost and drifting lately, so I don't think I'm capable of a post right now. But I'm sure I will soon.

BTW if anyone wants to be a maintaining type person, I'd be happy to do that.

Moses supozas, ke mia piedfingroj estas rozoj.... [userpic]
A Zen story.....
by Moses supozas, ke mia piedfingroj estas rozoj.... (wynona)
at September 24th, 2005 (12:25 am)


Someone sent me this today, and it struck me it might be appropriate here...


Once there was a woman named Kisagotami, whose first-born son died. She was so stricken with grief that she roamed the streets carrying the dead body and asking for help to bring her son back to life. A kind and wise man took her to the Buddha.

The Buddha told her, "Fetch me a handful of mustard seeds and I will bring your child back to life." Joyfully Kisagotami started off to get them. Then the Buddha added, "But the seeds must come from a family that has not known death."

Kisagotami went from door to door in the whole village asking for the mustard seeds, but everyone said, "Oh, there have been many deaths here", "I lost my father", I lost my sister". She could not find a single household that had not been visited by death. Finally Kisagotami returned to the Buddha and said, "There is death in every family. Everyone dies. Now I understand your teaching."

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And a nice Buddha.... http://www.onenesscenter.com/images/gallery/buddha.jpg

Book suggestions from the source of the Zen Story: Read more...Collapse )

jesse [userpic]
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at September 17th, 2005 (09:32 pm)

Reading postcards at Postsecret makes me sad. So many of these people are filled with such hate for themselves.. and most of them are people who are angry towards people who let them down, hurt them or just don't live up to their "standards". There's one example.

We are too easily influenced by others.
We try to "fix" ourselves by the standards of "everybody".
We try to change people to our liking.
We expect everything to be easy, every struggle is a punishment, no good could ever come out of it.

Is this really a healthy way of living?

Most of the posts on lj (again, not excluding myself) is complaining about the way other people live, how we are affected by it, and how we get hurt. Do we know that we are just hurting ourselves? Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of situations in life where we have reason to be hurt/angry, etc, but we shouldn't let it take over everything, or completely change our outlook on ourselves, our lives, or them.

We obsess about celebrities, how we think they are perfect, and nitpick at their every imperfection. We put friends, family members on pedestals, we expect people who love to act a certain way, and we are DEVASTATED when someone does something. Even something that has nothing to do with us.

We are all what I'd like to call perfectly imperfect. One persons weakness is another's strength. Be accepting of who you are, and of others (no matter how incredibly imperfect they are), and I promise that life will be sainer. Not perfect, but calm. Serene.

jesse [userpic]
by jesse (_effinsweet_)
at September 12th, 2005 (11:56 am)

Sorry all.. I had forgotten that I had made the membership based on approval basis. I think I figured that I'd want to friends-protect my entries, since I make a lot of them based on my personal experiences. But I am now open, and not afraid of sounding "stupid" or saying something that could be judged harshly.

I have opened it to everyone, so please join!

So anyway, a entry on my recoveryCollapse )